Mother

Recently, I've been thinking about what "mother" is.

My little one developed her own will and these days she almost always insists that mummy has to change her nappy or unclothe her or pour milk for her.   When her daddy or her grandma try to do such things, she throws a tantrum.  Until now, everyone did those things, quite often more than me.  She didn't mind.
When and how does she get so attached to mummy?  
What's so good about mummy?  



Also, some time ago, I received sad news that my friend's mum had passed away. 
I would often call on to her place and have a little chat with her mum at the front door until my friend came out.  There were occasions when I stayed at their place and when I joined her family visiting a museum.  So her mum was one of the most well-acquainted friend's mums to me.  And she was indeed a real motherly mother.   
And her mum was the first person to pass away, who I knew as a "mother" as a role.   
So it was quite shocking news to me.  
I was blindly feeling that "mother" will be there all the time and I can talk to her and ask her whatever if I need to.

And all those things made me feel nervous. 
Regardless of how good a mother I am, my little one thinks that I am her mummy and she should be feeling that I will be there all the time and she can ask whatever when she needs to.   

息抜きスケッチ

大きな仕事の嵐が終わりに近づいてきて、返信待ちの案件が増えてきたので、次の仕事に入る前に、ちょっと息抜きで好きな絵を描く。

そんなに描き続けたあとに、まだ何か描きたいわけ？と聞かれたけれど、
 やっぱり描くのは好きなんだなあ。だって描きたかったものがいっぱいあるし、何か見れば描いてみたいと思うし、好きなように描ける分にはやっぱり楽しい。



ふと見たら、覚えたての「いなー（いいなー）」と自分で言いながら箱の中に入っていた4月の頃のチビ。
I finally made something that I've wanted since April.  She is in a box, which rubber stamp blocks came in.  So I made her image with that rubber stamp. 



Harvest from our friend's house.
Painted and drew on top. It's nice to draw something that I don't need to care about the details. It frees me up.
大量に生っちゃったから持って行ってと言われ、友人宅で収穫してきた夏みかんと梅。料理担当の夫がきっと何とかしてくれるつもりなのだろうけど、どうするんだろうっていうくらいある。



Spotted bellflower.   
１月に置いてきてしまったのにずっと取りに行き損ねていた雨傘を受け取りに、久しぶりに横浜自然観察の森に行った。
チビは園内をほぼ自分で歩くと言い張り、急な階段もなんのその。ホタルブクロを見つけると「ホター」と教えてくれる。
ゆっくり歩いていたせいか、一瞬だったけど道路を横切るイタチを見た！　明るい茶色で、しっぽが長く体が細くて、タイワンリスかそれより小さいくらいのサイズと言ったら、イタチのほかにあり得ない気がする。レンジャーによれば、自動カメラに写ることはあるけれど、実際に見たという人は少ないらしい。



仕事に出かけた夫が、２分で家に戻ってきた。
何忘れたのー？と聞いたら、キマダラミヤマカミキリを手に持っていた。
こんなの見たのは初めて。



My little one making a phone call with my alarm clock. 
遠い親戚からお下がりでいただいたかわいい服を着せたら、夫が「こんな子知らないよ」って言うくらいおねーさんにみえる。 スマホを持っているのは、うちでは夫だけなのに、ちゃんとまねっこ。うん、うん、という口調まで。



These days, she just wants to do whatever adults do.  So it's getting even harder to sketch her. 
I tried to draw her on the ground while letting her sit on the panda. At least I get practice...and look, now she is already doing what I was doing!